我变了。。
sian..i really hate the way things are now..and i dont knw what to do also..so sian that i dont wanna do anything anyway.
i walk past the same place every morning...i seek the familiar bag and sihoullete with anticipation..and i fail to see it without fail..the irony of it...i look at the seats i used to sit on in the morning..spending time with my good friend whom i did not appreciate enough....all i feel are stings..stings to my eyes..stings to my heart.....
i can remember all the days my dear friend sat there waiting for me...without complaints..and i never even praised or complimented her before...till one day..i reached school..and found only empty seats..at once...(pardon me for the crude language) my balls dropped onto the floor and flew away (figurative)...i think..i can describe the feeling as..regret and despair.the kind of feeling one feels when hes told that he has contracted AIDS...
god knows how much i've worried..god knows how much i've cried..god knows how much im sorry and how much i regret being a dork..god knows how much i want my dear friend back.god knows how much i miss the mornings...hahaha.but i guess god also wants me to know..this is the path i chose..im supposed to pay for it.
strangely, with this kind of memory and unforgiving persona..i actually forgot how it happened..i cant remember the exact date..i cant remember the process completely..but due to my loserishness, i managed to lose a friend..
claps..good job yeujinq..good job
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