im lost
im lost..im damned lost now..
nature always goes against me..what i think i should do always happens to be the wrong choice....so how do i go from here? i seriously dont wanna lose my friend..but wtf..i was the one who started the whole shit in the first place....
words cant save me now..i mean..no matter how much i say..i really cannt express how i feel..and seriously..yeahh.i should stop being selfish...i really dont deserve forgiveness...but..i really regret like shit..i regret like shit....
siao..i dont knw..i think this year has been the worst year..and i made it bad..all by myself..wthh....its like..this year i can see all my white hair coming out le..for once leh..last time dont even have white hair before ok..nowadays..either cannt fall asleep, or feel damn tired.
haiz...i dont knw what to do..i dont knw what to do..i lost a friend..just like that..like that..just like that..
虽然说大家还是朋友，不过难免还会有一些怪怪的感觉存在。。。我好想回到从前那样。。你却说已经不太可能。。我不想面对现实。。我不想失去我的朋友。。。。你说习惯了早晨自己度过，我能体谅。。就算我会孤单，我也能了解。。。不过我就是不肯接受事实。。不肯接受我们无法像以前那么好的那个事实。。都是我的错。。我现在认了又有什么用呢？没办法。。我会尽力。。我会加油。。。我永远都不敢怪懒了。。
我这次失去了才了解朋友的珍贵。。。当作是最后一次教训。。以后不能再犯。。。我真的真的真的了解了朋友的珍贵。。
我不打算放弃。。我觉得我们的伤口还是有机会复原。。虽然不能痊愈，只要能变回以前那样，我不需要忘记这一段痛苦的时光。。其实痛苦的应该不只是我一个。。。我永远忘不了这段时光，也不需要忘记。。我要永远留着这一份回忆当作一个教训。。
对不起。。一直以来真的是我错了。。希望你了解我心里其实不是那么想的。
我发现，当你和好朋友闹翻时，比跟女朋友或是自己喜欢的人闹翻还惨。。我现在真的好伤心。。显。。。。
beer was supposed to be bitter..somehow..that can of carlsberg tasted like coke with extra sugar to me today...after everything..i dont think anything can be as bitter..
i dont wanna think too much..cant think so much anyway..still under the influence of carlsberg and vodka..zz
ciao
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