im serious about it
im going to really really chiong my best for music already...spent god knows how long singing with my piano today..zzz..must find time to practise the stupid etudes la...siann.
must chiong alr..guitar also..sian.i learn one warmness solo learn so long still cannt memorise lehh.i think its effort ba.hahaha.cos i dont find a point in memorising the solo..haha..nvm.i'll practise alot more when i have the time..
hahah..cant be bothered to be excited about tmr..cos im quite sure they'll drag the shit again..told us check master marksheet.i thought will know whether we promoted..drag.....principal talk..drag..aiya..tmr sure drag again..like i alr know i failed la..please..need you all to tell me meh? i only passed 2h2 and 1 h1...dont need you all to print out the shit to tell me i failed..i know..i know alr! so unless im finally going to know whether im promoted and can let myself rest properly, dont give me lots of fake surprises.
yeahhh..actually..i wanted to get a few cans of beer..drink some tonight..drink some tmr morning..get myself ready for the result slip...just like i prepared myself for promo papers checking....but haiz..no point la.i think..hahaha
haiz...you know why we can't just do that? because there's no such thing as a restart button..and there is no such thing as a pause, fast forward or rewind...no such thing..even if there IS a restart button...hahaha.
haha..know why im not even worried about the results tmr? because i realised..if im promoted.its all thanks to god and my hard work..if i dont promote..well..it might not be such a bad thing...if i dont promote..hahaha.im super sure i wont retain...i will just go off lo..hahah.
in my room alone, i was playing the piano..somehow.i really felt like crying.hey..somehow.i cried.wow..dont tell me.hey dont cry..everything will be okay..hahaha.know why i cried? i cried cos i knew that not everything will be okay..and im just filled with regret and despair.its just regret and despair day after day..dont tell me to cheer up..whats the point in cheering up? when im not even happy? LOL? isnt it ironic..im not happy..ppl tell me cheer up.how to cheer up? theres nothing to be happy about...
lol.op again tmr..time to go for best improvement award.im just afraid that my performance wasnt shit enough today..oh shit.i was hoping we'd get the result slips first..haha.then i could do anything i wan alr..if i promote.i'll be nice and do a good presentation.if i dont..then no matter what i do, it wont matter right? hahaha.im an irresponsible loser shit who wants the world to revolve around me.and i like to act like a kid..throw tantrums and cry when i cant get what i want...
reflect upon your own actions..good thinking
ciao
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8:18 PM
