long day ahead.
now that im not so tired and not under the influence of alcohol..i can probably make better judgements..hahaha..
sometimes you feel so depressed...so tired......so emotional..you want to give up..okay..i want to give up..i want to give up..seriously.i want to give up...but somehow everything i've learnt in life tells me..dont give up dont give up dont give up..its the crucial moment now...its freaking crucial..its like the apex of the turn..miss abit, you lose the race..so my heart keeps telling me..dont give up dont give up dont give up dont give up dont give up..finish what you set out to do..
how come i never fully learn?? i dont mean it in the singlish sense....i mean it..how come after each time, i can never fully learn.i think its because i never ever find out where i went wrong..i just assume i know...and each time..i just stop after saying sorry..i just say sorry.assume everything is back to normal..continue with life..start drifting apart from people..and end up forgetting about them totally...i feel like some.....i dont knw.tsk..i dont knw la..i dont dare to think alr
this time im really determined...even if all of you dont support me..i dont care..i feel that..this is one time in my life when i can make things right...done so many wrong things..made so many ppl sad..fagg..
hmmm..you knw sth? im actually quite tired of thinking..i mean.errrrm.i realised..everytime i think its the right thing to do..everytime i feel that sth i do is right...in the end, its always wrong.its always wrong..and when i feel that its wrong..its still wrong..i think no matter what i do..it'll still be wrong..its always wrong....i dont wanna think anymore..im just gonna do whatever comes to my mind first.i dont give a damn whether its gonna be right or not..no point thinking....anything is better than just sitting and waiting for things to happen..
remember what they say about there being 2 types of ppl..one type who wait for things to happen, one type who make things happen..well..i think its a whole load of crap..they forgot another type of people..the type who TRY to make things happen...but fail la..of course.
oh ya..i've tried to put myself in others' shoes..and tried to understand what they're thinking of...i realised leh..for me personally..i feel that......hmm..im going to try to make myself worthy..yeahhhh..
nothing more i can do for now..but wait..hah..the feeling of helplessness..the sound of silence..
ciao
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9:13 AM
