im not the one
to be frank..i dont see myself ever getting rich..hahah.i dont wanna work for my future blah blah blah...
and i cant be bothered with the etiquette stuff..we wear slippers, with polo tops and shorts to orchard..whats wrong with that..got ppl say go orchard must wear designer meh? -.- comfortable ma...
im like so damn broke now la..start saving all over again..nvm.im damned sure i can make it through the hols without savings..im gonna try.
but not rich doesnt mean i cannt play piano..not rich doesnt mean i cannt play bball.not rich doesnt mean i cannt play guitar.
got minds tmr..i wanted to go out in the afternoon la..piang eh..if its whole day i'll really be damn pissed off tmr..lame shits.
time heals? it heals no shit man..its just that after time you forget about stuff..and just dont give a shit about them anymore..you find new stuff to give your shit about...what does it heal? tell me..got heal anything meh? no..nothing healed..really..nothing healed..just a hell lot of shit piled on you...and a hell lot of shit you have to pile on others..
god damned shit..i dont feel like playing anything at the moment la..no musical feeling rushing to me..i'd rather play bball now..i wanna play bball tmr.
forget it la..i tell you.it never benefits everyone..someone has to suffer.and seriously speaking..the person suffering is not neccesarily the "victim"..lol..win-win? theoretically can la..but real life no one follow de.everyone wants to win..theres normally only 1 winner..then the rest have to lose lo! how to win-win? someone has to get the "oh-we-fought-hard-and-lost-but-i-think-we're-still-the-best" kind of win..which is......actually not really a win..its just something to make you feel happier when you got owned by others..
dont you agree? i guess most ppl have been on both ends..the real win..and the fake win..tell me la..which one better..obviously real win better..who wants to put in their best effort and still lose? you wanna lose might as well dont fight la..
shit man.i digressed.shit.i cant remember what i wanted to say alr..errr..yah it never benefits everyone....honestly..i can seriously swear that it pains me that things turned out this way...becoming this kind of..zzz..so...awkward kind of thing..gahh..
but what can i do? it was my fault..i keep getting nightmares la..piang eh.its my fault.gosh.although its my fault.i really have to stop telling myself that..its beginning to haunt me...shit.
its time for us to say cliche stuff again..or at least..for me to say it..i dont want to leave things hanging here..i really dont want to..blah blah blah..i dont want to just move on like that blah blah blah and a whole lot of crap.but when it comes down to reality.after time..we'll just forget and move on..which is freaking stupid..but you got no choice!!!! dont quote some wise man la...tell me what..you always have a choice..have a choice la.but not ALWAYS..oh..i can choose not to forget..but i'll forget anyway..its our nature to forget stuff..
this one most impt alr "what happens when trust is lost?" impt impt impt..when trust is lost..how do you gain it back again..seriously right..if i can answer that question.i dont have to sit here and type shit...ha...
ciao
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10:57 PM
