bring it on
looking at the way things have been going on..i think..im glad...im really glad i have these many things to worry about..no joke.i really like it alot.well.at least it takes my mind off the stuff that i shouldnt care about..
ppl have different interests..they have different thoughts..before we jump to conclusions..always think la.reflect upon what you have done..actually its perfectly okay if you dont reflect.but if you dont reflect then dont kaobei la..if you reflect and you think that you dont give a damn..then continue doing what you wanna do lo..no one can tell you whats right and whats wrong..its really up to you..what you want to do.
ppl can tell you that you're being guailan..but if you dont mind..then its perfectly fine..believe in your own set of morals la.nobody really has the right to tell you what to do...no matter what you do..someone's going to say something..so whats the point..just do what you want to la..okay la..i meant that to a certain extent.
you see..if jc has taught me anything other than all the academic stuff..its about how to handle disappointment..and......how to move on in life..i didnt want it to be this way..i can really really really really say..i tried.i TRIED..i really did.i wanted it to end well..but it had to go this way...so how?
you commit a big error..people get angry with you for doing that..you apologise..its too late..you try to make up for your errors..but you cant do anything..because what is done is done..and you can just go and cry and bang your heads out thinking of ways to try harder..but you're never forgiven because its difficult to put the past behind..soon..you get damn tired trying..you remember that you onced promised to keep trying till you fixed stuff..you continue trying..there are circumstances, chances...purely coincidental stuff, which make you damn tired on top of your main problem..soon....damn soon.you know that you have to give up trying....because you were so fucking stupid to do dumb stuff in the first place..and now no matter what you do, you're never going to get your friend back..
when you're faced with situations like this....you can get all the time to sleep...but you'll never be able to fall asleep without lying in bed for at least 2 hours.
im not joking..every night before you go to sleep.you tell yourself..no thinking tonight..i need to sleep..you lie down..and everything just comes back..you try your best to forget...try to sleep..try to sleep..it gets more and more uncomfortable..and you really feel so fucked up that you cant do a shit but just sit there and curse yourself...you dont really have many ppl to count on at that hour..what can you do?? just sit there...trying to sleep..occasionally.you leave tears behind..what can you do??????? you just regret and regret and regret and regret and regret..nothing more.
and the next morning..you have to go to school smiling, lying to yourself that everything is going to be fine...who to blame but yourself? LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
great life..
screw it man
ciao
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