yeahh.
pretty much a happier person now..except the fact that i've also gotten back into niao mode..i realised that i niaoed ppl alot less when i was sad and troubled..well.but.i guess...i dont really niao ppl.i just make more sarcastic comments when im not happy about what is said..yeahh..sometimes i really get..very frustrated..
honestly i dont knw what i want now..i really dont knw what i want..hahaha.i guess that kinda sucks.i mean..wth.who doesnt knw what he wants lah.hahahah.but.i guess im really stumped la.this time...haiz.okay..thing is..i dont really knw what to say.
haiz...okay..some things.are just simply not meant to be..hahaha.just random statements la k.dont mean much.dont think too much.
i was always the one hiding..no more hiding now.jordan says "obstacles dont have to stop you, if you run into a wall, dont turn around and give up! figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.." obstacles dont have to stop me.i've ran against a wall...i've given up..i've tried again.i tried to figure how to climb it.i failed.i gave up..i tried again.i tried to go through it.i failed again.i wanted to totally give up.i tried to work around it, i failed again..tell me what to do now? i cant climb the wall, i cant go through it, i cant work around it..what can i do? do i keep running against the wall and bleed to death? or is the only way the way of turning around and changing my direction? i dont think there will ever be a way of crossing the wall or clearing it.its like a rigged game, no matter how hard you try or how many times you play, the algorithms keep changing...you can never beat the game.no matter how hard you try...you can NEVER beat the game..im glad that i turned around..although i feel ashamed of myself for doing it.well.it may be the cowardly way out, but what choices do i have?thanks for supporting me and encouraging me not to give up all along bro..you made a difference.seriously..but.i think you've done your part.and i've done mine..maybe its just me, maybe i cant convey what i mean or how apologetic i am..thanks anyway.and..i'll just make it a memory and remember never to commit faults like this again..thanks for your help..alot.alot..alot...when you fail to cross a wall after trying almost everything..stop running against the wall..but try everything first..im not emo..im just sian.hahaha.i dont like to emo de.laxing
start earning money now.it'll pay off in the future..im glad i have a job..useless as it may be.it gets me by...savings start small..it'll get huge in the future.right now.i dont give a shit.haha.earn and spend hahaha.or else i find job for what LOL..
ciao
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