no breaking point?

there's only that much i can take..

im just too weak..zz.

yesterday was the best day of the week..duh.went out to have fun =)

tues..it'll be the end of the pain temporarily..

haiz...

i dont knw what to do..im really feeling very bad..and yet..i cant bring myself to put in hard work..i hate this.

i hate challenges nowadays..i dont like to challenge myself anymore..i dont like to win others..i dont even like to win in things i can win..i hate winning..i hate competition..i just want to slack

im sick of this..

and i cant even run away with alcohol..

this sucks

i need some help seriously..gah.


i wish it was still 2008..

Dedicated to the number 14