this is LIFE
okay..you're alone now..
why must it always be this time of the year..shit it.
i feel dead..10 days or so to go..so many things not done..
i feel so bad now..yet i really dont have time to waste thinking of stuff other than phys chem math econs...even so, my mind just drifts off, and i end up wasting time..sucks aint it.
i think..i finally understand the true meaning of stress alr.i only came across it yesterday..it felt like shit..
went home from school alone..and i had lots of time to myself..just kept thinking..and kept worrying about A lvls...in the past, i never cared much about A lvls..i didnt care how badly i did for it..now when i really just want to work hard, i cant focus..im angry cos i cant focus.
honestly, i dont regret starting to study so late..i know i couldnt have started any earlier anyway..so.it doesnt matter.its just me..what im pissed off with is the fact that i cant concentrate..i cant let this happen.im a last minute guy, if i cant even concentrate last minute, im a goner..its just as simple as that.
im praying for concentration..im not really hoping for good results..just let me focus, so that i can take the a lvls without regrets..i know i couldnt have started studying any earlier, so i dont have any regrets..really.no regrets on that..but if i cant study now.i'll regret it for the rest of my life..
sorry all of you who put your trust in me..i thought i was trustworthy.turns out, im nothing more than another dick.hahah.yahh.
believe in myself? theres nothing to believe in man..honestly.
i regret drinking.i shouldnt have even touched any alcohol from the start.
its too late now..
i realised that..people change.sometimes they become better, sometimes they take a turn for the worse..hahaha.it doesnt matter la.as we grow we change.things influence us, we change, we grow..ppl mature.they were once innocent..haha.i was once innocent.maybe i still am..yeahh.
i dont change..after so many years.im still the same.as stubborn.as stupid..as immature.haha.
im still me..the sec 1 me.the sec 2 me.the sec 3 me.the sec 4 me.the j1 me.im still the same me..everytime, i thought i grew.i thought i was better.i thought i became smarter.i thought i'd never make the same mistakes again..
but.i do it time and time again.hahaa.all the time.all the time
bye
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7:05 AM
