i guess things dont always go the way you want them to.

but we cant always give ourselves excuses..when everything you want doesnt go your way, something's wrong..

and something's really wrong for me right now..

i've given up a huge part of my life..

what for right? hahaha.you can fight and fight and fight for what you wan..but you'll still lose in the end.

you knw those days when you play mahjong and everything just doesnt go your way? you just never get to win..always just so close....so close..

sadly..those days dont happen to me anymore..the "mahjong game" now..is my life...

ironically..im starting to have REALLY good luck when playing mahjong..no matter how much i lose.i'll win it back...somehow..it just comes.no skill involved..plain luck..

oh hahah guess what? the shittiest thing that could happen now is that i have SHITLUCK in both mahjong and life..hahaha.i will just laugh..

like i do at many things in life now..dont go my way? i just laugh..i mean..i saw it coming anyway..just THOUGHT i could avoid it.hahaha.

so..whatever.look at me.you can laugh..despise..or whatever shit..

when someone doesnt value something much anymore, he doesnt give a shit what others think of it..

byebye

Dedicated to the number 14