losing your everything
做人。。重要是要有理想。要有目标。。当你失去目标，失去理想，做人将会变成很无畏的“工作”。。要找回理想，锁定目标，人生才会有乐趣。。。无论你成功或失败，只要有目标就一定会刺激。。目标与理想能另一个人努力奋斗，尽力争取自己所要的一切。。。。
我。。没有目标，没有理想。。每天就吊儿郎当地过。。无所事事，游手好闲。。没意思。。。。。
我不是不珍惜生命，我很感激自己有一个能够做人的机会。。可是我希望我能够像别人一样有上进心，有梦想。。。可能因为我一直都处在一个“钱来伸手，饭来张口”的环境。。我并不担心会挨饿，会没钱用。可能因为此事，我无意中变成了一个不上进，不想为自己争取的人。。
坦白说，我不贪钱。。当然，有钱拿我一定高兴，但是我并没想过要当个百万富翁之类的人物。。对我来说，够花就好了。。那为什么要赌？赌是为了刺激。。哈哈哈哈。老实说，真的是为了刺激。我就算赢钱了，每次都请吃饭喝咖啡之类的，结果我还亏钱。。哈哈哈哈。真的是为了刺激。。
sometimes i lie in bed and think..which female would put her life in the hands of someone who gambles and drinks compulsively..i mean.its so retarded..hahah.i dont even gamble to win.i mean..gamblers they want to win money..they at least put effort into it.they bet on horses and soccer and they do research and everything..they want to win..they love to win.cos they want the money..i dont even want to win badly..as in.i just do it cos its very exciting.haha.thats like..such a loser who doesnt even have goals la.even when im engaging in negative externalities, im not putting in effort to do it to the best..how loserish is that? haiz..
its so unstable to rely on a gambler/drinker/slacker..i work when i want to.work when i need money..i spend the money eating,gambling,drinking.my money ends up going to ntuc and singapore pools.
its just loserish..honestly.if i were a girl, i wouldnt consider me at all.cos i'd never have a good life going out with me..dont have a uni degree.good in nothing.drink/gamble the money away..good for nothing.never will make it big in life...
ok.im done convincing myself im a loser..in this way..although you kinda cheat yourself, you feel better when shit happens..at least..its cos im a loser..ahahah
its so loser trying to blame things on being a loser right? ahahah.anything happens..its cos im a loser.what a convenient but pathetic excuse.lol.
whatever la.i think i'll stay single my whole life.cos..no one can possibly put up with me.but anyway..errr.the thing is.i realised i always self fufill my prophecies one.hahah.i predicted i'd end up this way..regretting about A's..i made it happen.i predicted i'd end up this way in life..i made it happen..i'll probably make myself single too..so...im just saying la..i predicted it alr..so..20 years down the road when im like 40..i'll look back and say this loserishly "oh, i predicted i'll stay single ma..i knew it.cos i saw it coming from 1000000000 years away.."
what time is it?
hahaha.seriously.its tiger time.
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